I know that I have awhile to decide this but it's coming sooner than expected. See, my freshman and sophomore years literally flew by. To be honest with you, I can't believe I'm halfway through high school already and a soon-to-be junior. Then after next year...I don't want to think about that yet.
Back to the main topic - college and majors.
My original goal was to be a music teacher & be able to teach piano lessons. I've had this one university in California that I've liked since 8th grade - and that's a long time - but my mom brought up the fact that (according to my persuasive speech...it's so unfair how my final speech is being used against me) the first classes to get cut in a school are the music & arts programs. So I would have no job, pretty much. So then I thought, what about a double major in education and music education? So that way, I could still teach music ed but have something to fall back on just in case the whole music ed idea fell through (which would be regular teaching). But then you can guess that I found something on this website where you can look up colleges, careers, find out what college is good for you, etc... - I heard about special education. It would be so cool to be able to work with special needs kids. But the school that I want to go to doesn't offer that as a major. So I'm stuck right now. I know there are other options out there. And I'm looking for them.
My main goal is to become SOME kind of teacher.
I need to stop stressing here.
But the thing is, I don't really want to go to a huge public university because to tell you the truth, they scare me a little bit. I wouldn't be used to the huge student population - see, I'm used to being in a small private school. I've been in a small private school from PreK-10th grade so far. I don't know how well I'd make a transition into a huge public school. That's what I worry about. I'm trying to find small schools...
My life is not working out right now. Call me back later when I stop stressing.
I need to stop what I'm doing, sit down and have a long talk with God about this. I feel like He'll understand me and what I'm going through with this so goodbye for now. I'll probably be praying later tonight.
Goodbye<3>
PS. I'm really in love with the song "Princess Charming" by Megan & Liz. If you haven't heard it, look it up on youtube!! What the heck, I should just post a lyric video here.
Things will all work out. :)
ReplyDeleteThere's something at church we once did—if we needed advice for something, we would make a letter to God, hide it somewhere, meditate for twenty minutes or so, and read the letter as if *we* were God. I swear, it really helps, because the meditating clears your mind, and you just may find a solution to your problem. :)